AAAAARRRRRRRRRRGH
Last week of the semester. Am dying. Am dead. *thud*

Paper sucks and has no point. I ran Endnote last night to total up how many sources my *review paper* had used: 14. 14!!!!! wtf happened to the weeks of research and notes I did?!?!

Presentation has not been started and is due Thursday. What? Today is Tuesday? Holy crap.

Have to lead dicussion in class tomorrow and papers are incomprehensible. On the plus side: encouraging class's good will with donuts.

Must write questions for final exam in TA class, and do review session immediately after presentation, for which I will be entirely unprepared.

And... no clue what I'm doing this summer, no time to figure it out.

Pondering quitting again. A 9-5 job sounds awfully damned sweet right now.

Now... shower and get back to work, you lazy slacker.
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Open letter to parents who take babies on trains during rush hour
DON'T.

Sincerely,
Daily commuter whose earphones can't quite block out ear-splitting squeals, no matter how far up the Linkin Park is cranked
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Big ol' dummyhead
After years of semi-registering the word "denier", pronouncing it "DEN-year" in my head, wondering what it means, and moving on... I've just now realized it's "de-NY-er", one who denies stuff. It was a startling epiphany. Similar to my "misled" epiphany of several years ago; I had long wondered what it meant to "misle" someone.
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Hm, not quite as bad as expected...
Out of four comments, three good and one very good. Also, a couple of nice things about my unusualness in the field, and the interesting questions posed. And I was rated in the 63rd percentile, which I think for not having any research experience is pretty good. Like I said, I have four months to become brilliant. Starting... well, in three weeks. Must get through this semester first. I can only think about 50,000 things at once.
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Sucky
Got an email from NSF telling me I can go look at my GRFP feedback. However, several zillion other people must have also received that email because their server is totally clogged and won't let me in. I know the evaluation was not good, but I hate knowing there's bad news lurking in the background and I can't just get it over with. I just hope it's not too disheartening. I'm having a sufficiently rotten semester that discouragement is the last thing I need.

I have this fantasy that by the end of the summer, I'll be brilliant and have a well-designed, innovative project mapped out, I'll be good at sequencing, I'll have samples from an elegant, multi-scale, inarguably appropriate sampling scheme, and I'll be ready for both prelims and the EPA application.

I have four months. We'll see how far I get.

In the meantime, I have this accursed paper to write. It refuses to be written. And I have all this other stuff to do... I think I'm going to die. I blame the Christians; if I'd had Easter to get stuff done, I'd be much farther along by now.
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t-shirt of the day
"The only job I need is a blowjob."

Get in line, ladies! This guy's a keeper!
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I can't stop taking these stupid on-line quizzes!!
Must be a manifestation of my OCD....

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Low
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

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