Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Last week of the semester. Am dying. Am dead. *thud*
Paper sucks and has no point. I ran Endnote last night to total up how many sources my *review paper* had used: 14. 14!!!!! wtf happened to the weeks of research and notes I did?!?!
Presentation has not been started and is due Thursday. What? Today is Tuesday? Holy crap.
Have to lead dicussion in class tomorrow and papers are incomprehensible. On the plus side: encouraging class's good will with donuts.
Must write questions for final exam in TA class, and do review session immediately after presentation, for which I will be entirely unprepared.
And... no clue what I'm doing this summer, no time to figure it out.
Pondering quitting again. A 9-5 job sounds awfully damned sweet right now.
Now... shower and get back to work, you lazy slacker.
Open letter to parents who take babies on trains during rush hour
Daily commuter whose earphones can't quite block out ear-splitting squeals, no matter how far up the Linkin Park is cranked
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Big ol' dummyhead
After years of semi-registering the word "denier", pronouncing it "DEN-year" in my head, wondering what it means, and moving on... I've just now realized it's "de-NY-er", one who denies stuff. It was a startling epiphany. Similar to my "misled" epiphany of several years ago; I had long wondered what it meant to "misle" someone.
Monday, April 17, 2006
Hm, not quite as bad as expected...
Out of four comments, three good and one very good. Also, a couple of nice things about my unusualness in the field, and the interesting questions posed. And I was rated in the 63rd percentile, which I think for not having any research experience is pretty good. Like I said, I have four months to become brilliant. Starting... well, in three weeks. Must get through this semester first. I can only think about 50,000 things at once.
Got an email from NSF telling me I can go look at my GRFP feedback. However, several zillion other people must have also received that email because their server is totally clogged and won't let me in. I know the evaluation was not good, but I hate knowing there's bad news lurking in the background and I can't just get it over with. I just hope it's not too disheartening. I'm having a sufficiently rotten semester that discouragement is the last thing I need.
I have this fantasy that by the end of the summer, I'll be brilliant and have a well-designed, innovative project mapped out, I'll be good at sequencing, I'll have samples from an elegant, multi-scale, inarguably appropriate sampling scheme, and I'll be ready for both prelims and the EPA application.
I have four months. We'll see how far I get.
In the meantime, I have this accursed paper to write. It refuses to be written. And I have all this other stuff to do... I think I'm going to die. I blame the Christians; if I'd had Easter to get stuff done, I'd be much farther along by now.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
I can't stop taking these stupid on-line quizzes!!
Must be a manifestation of my OCD....
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