Monday, April 17, 2006
Got an email from NSF telling me I can go look at my GRFP feedback. However, several zillion other people must have also received that email because their server is totally clogged and won't let me in. I know the evaluation was not good, but I hate knowing there's bad news lurking in the background and I can't just get it over with. I just hope it's not too disheartening. I'm having a sufficiently rotten semester that discouragement is the last thing I need.
I have this fantasy that by the end of the summer, I'll be brilliant and have a well-designed, innovative project mapped out, I'll be good at sequencing, I'll have samples from an elegant, multi-scale, inarguably appropriate sampling scheme, and I'll be ready for both prelims and the EPA application.
I have four months. We'll see how far I get.
In the meantime, I have this accursed paper to write. It refuses to be written. And I have all this other stuff to do... I think I'm going to die. I blame the Christians; if I'd had Easter to get stuff done, I'd be much farther along by now.