Monday, October 03, 2005
I am *so* glad last week is over. I had a really really terrible week, although I suppose most of it was fine; it just ended badly. I won't go into details in case those involved will see this, but will just say that I was cramming my foot in my mouth every time I opened it, utterly incapable of anything resembling tact or subtlety. Also, it was my turn to lead journal club, and I felt I made a monumental cock-up of that as well. Being in grad school sometimes makes me feel so hopelessly stupid and the thought of quitting wandered through my mind a few times this weekend. So, I took the weekend off from anything resembling thought, and resolved to do better. At least the journal club monkey is off my back for the rest of the semester. Now I just have to buckle down and attempt to learn something. I'm not bad at learning things on my own, but it really seems that I keep trying to learn the *wrong* things. My previous lack of biology experience or a biology degree is really hurting me, regardless of the attempts by my colleagues to reassure me that it's not. Even the first-years are far beyond me in experience and knowledge. I thought being in my second year, and having a project, would make me feel like I belong in this program, but I'm not there yet. And I can't talk to anyone about it because I'm so frustrated and upset that I'm not rational enough to discuss it without crying like big stupid moron. ANYWAY.
Weekend: Saw Serenity on opening night - liked it, loved it, but WHY did they have to kill off [name withheld to prevent spoilers]? Too much love story stuff, lots of violence, cool effects, snappy dialog. Main storyline from the show was wrapped up very neatly, so... if they make another movie, I guess they're free to go in whatever direction they want now.
Also: Went to Edward's for our annual high-calorie field trip. The place was hopping, even at 10 a.m. They double-fenced the petting zoo, and required that feed be slid into PVC chutes into a food dish the goats could reach. Did someone get bitten last year? Anyway, very disappointing. The goats are my favorite part. Well. Second favorite.
Astros won the wild card because the Cubs couldn't manage to beat them for the Phillies. Cubs finished two games under 500, but they didn't deserve to win anything this year with the way they were playing much of the season. The White Sox are in the playoffs, and I quietly wish them well but I am not really rooting for them because I know that if they win, the fans' attitudes will not be "Yay! We won!" but rather "HA! Take that, Northside scum!" or sentiments along those lines. Their victory will be symbolically over the Cubs regardless of who they actually beat. But no matter; I don't see them advancing beyond the series with the Red Sox. I could be wrong. And I don't see anyone beating the Cardinals, although I thought that last year, too.